12/16/2024

My first blog post! - An introduction

Who Am I? 

    My name is Kia, I am a mid-twenties girly with a tech 9-5 job which means I spend     most of my time at home, especially in the winter when it gets dark at 5pm! I have     tried a lot of hobbies over the last few years like crocheting, knitting, making     dollhouses, painting with watercolors, jigsaw puzzles, cocktail making, sewing, baking     and cooking and so many more. I still love doing all of these things but recently I have     become uninspired. I got to a place where I was just waiting for work to be over so I     could relax by having a few seltzers or some of my favorite whiskey and I soon realized I     was drinking a lot, I was feeling groggy and sometimes hungover and then I started     to feel like I was wasting my evenings then my weeks then months. I stopped     working on my dollhouse, stopped sewing, exercising, even doing my self care.

What is the point of this blog?

    I want to get back into my hobbies and I want to stop relying on a drink to 'soothe' me     after work! I want to push myself to take this process seriously and really change my     lifestyle, but also take it slow and enjoy the process. The point of this blog is to     document my feelings in this journey of being sober from alcohol and going back to     my hobbies to feel more fulfilled during my 5-9 after work and just in general. And I     definitely want to finish my dollhouse, my sisters, partner, parents and close friends are     waiting to see me finish this one!!!

What made me want to start blogging?

    So, a few weeks ago I left my office as normal and I poured some whiskey and went to     take a bath, then I poured some more and watched a movie then I had a little more     right before bed. I woke up in the middle of the night around 4 am and could not go     back to sleep. My head was pounding and when I got up to use the bathroom I could     feel the hangover brewing and I stood and looked at myself and thought 'Kia, what are     you doing. You didn't even do anything last night, you drank and had a bath. You did     not sew like you wanted to, you did not finish your cross stitch, you didn't cook dinner...'     I went back to bed and tried to sleep with no luck. I did not want to be groggy,     hungover, feeling guilty and ashamed. I went on Pinterest and I started to look up     'what to do in the evening instead of drinking' which I know sounds intense, but I just     wanted the feeling to disappear. 

 Where do I want to take this blog and do I have a goal?

    I want this blog to hold myself accountable and to have an outlet when I want to talk     but can't find the words to physically speak. I want to use my time doing productive     things that make me happy and let me express my creativity instead of doing things     that feel good for a while then send me crashing down.

    I have a few ideas already! I want to do a little series of 'Weekly Mocktails' I still love     having a fun drink after work while cooking or winding down or doing my hobbies! My     sister told me I should experiment with making sparkling waters or sodas, as one of my     most used, and prized, possessions is my Soda Stream. I also want to utilize some of     the 'x number of things to do instead of drinking' posts on Pinterest as challenges to     try even more new things! 

    My goal is a little selfish, I want to stop drinking so much. I want to enjoy the occasional     drink when I am at a party, I want to have a Bloody Mary after skiing, I want to have a     whiskey sour with my mom on my birthday. But I do not want to rely on alcohol to cure     my boredom or to be at the forefront of my mind. I am not anticipating this reaching a     huge audience, but I would also love to inspire and help people one day...or even just 1     person. 

 

 

I am logging out for the day to go finally work on my dollhouse again and look up some fun mocktail recipes (I'd like to create some too!!) --See you soon!!